naivety eats me

Two dreams happened in just one night a few days ago.

The first one was pretty random things occuring one after another with lots of people in the dream. Can't remember the exact details but it was just another weird dream.

The second one began right after the first one ended with the same guy again as in the previous dream. There was some really odd and dodgy stuff going on so I won't reiterate it here. Just that the main point of the night before is why him again?

It's not that I want to have anything to do with him or particular feelings for him. It just happened.

Perhaps it's just the oddity in me working overtime in the last few days. Combined with a few drinking sessions infused with poker and bridge card games, and Kings drinking game, and you've got a pretty screwed head.

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

twice the trouble

Lightning does strike the same place twice. At least for me it does.

I had another one of those dreams about a certain guy person whom I might or might not have a possible crush developing in its early stages.

Just to detract a bit, the colours in dreams apparently tell a lot about the overall mood, person, yourself and atmosphere of the dream. So I will attempt to describe this dream in some what that order.

The dream started off with the guy and I talking and getting a bit close to each other which if I recalled was a cold night hence the closeness. We were excited about attending a comedy act or show in this place 'Comedy House' or 'Comedy Club' where popular comedians come and do their act for a crowd of easy-going people. When we got there there was a long line of people waiting to get into the club. There were lots of bright and colourful lights everywhere we went.

I felt really contented and happy throughout the dream just being with him by my side. It was a normal date thing but not to the extent that we were in a relationship. I don't remember if we actually got into the club but it ended on a relatively happy note I would say. I remember waking up feeling more cheerful than usual despite it being so early in the morning.

The guy is someone whom I never thought I would actually sort of fall for or think of him in that context or way. Why him? Well it could be attributed to us just talking a bit more recently or maybe stemming from my own weird complexities regarding "taken" people. Me falling for "taken" people has already happened twice so far in this year alone. There really must be something wrong with me I think.

Anyway, with the dream locked away in the back of my little mind, I really shouldn't let it get to me and in the way of my every day life.
I mean like him not calling me last night even though he said he would doesn't mean anything. Does it?

orgas-m

Him. It was another dream about the guy again.

Except I can't seem to be able to regurgitate what happened in that dream here now. I just know that he was in it and that I was happy to see him that I didn't realise that I was actually dreaming till I was rudely awaken by the cheerless tone of my alarm.

I want to be with him.

And yet I don't because I know I can't.