Not the oddest dream I've ever had yet but it's still up there on my "Weird Dreams Ever" list.
The atmosphere of the whole dream felt like I was actually living another ordinary day. But with the "person"; V. It wasn't until I woke up that I knew it was a dream. It felt like the beginning of this initially non-relationship thing we had but then in the dream we sort of became closer until he could actually reach for my hand and interlock our fingers together. And this wasn't in some secluded or where it was only the both of us but with alot of people around as well. He just started holding my hand, cupping I suppose, and then before I knew it we were stuck to each other by our hands.
It went on for about the whole day until I woke up of course. Just the two of us being together without letting our hands part. It was a nice feeling. Definitely.
But the problem is that I don't have any more attachments or feelings for V. Not now and probably not in the future. This is the third dream I've had that involved him in the picture. So it was a bit of an odd feeling for me when I woke up to find that I actually dreamt of him and that I really didn't feel that attraction even slightly. Not the least bit. In addition to that fact, I think he doesn't as well even though I felt like he did show some interest in the beginning but I think we've come to this unsaid but mutual understanding that we may not be right for each other even though I/he used to like him/me.
Do I feel sad? Not really. Do I wish that I actually still had those diminished feelings? Possibly.
This is probably due to the large fact that I think I actually retain those lost and found feelings I've felt for J since early this semester. Somehow talking to him yesterday managed to resurrect those burried and that I had thought was long gone feelings. Which I really do wish it remained tucked away somewhere in my mind.
But anyway, the conclusion is that I always dream about the oddest things and at the most awkward times and moments.
The atmosphere of the whole dream felt like I was actually living another ordinary day. But with the "person"; V. It wasn't until I woke up that I knew it was a dream. It felt like the beginning of this initially non-relationship thing we had but then in the dream we sort of became closer until he could actually reach for my hand and interlock our fingers together. And this wasn't in some secluded or where it was only the both of us but with alot of people around as well. He just started holding my hand, cupping I suppose, and then before I knew it we were stuck to each other by our hands.
It went on for about the whole day until I woke up of course. Just the two of us being together without letting our hands part. It was a nice feeling. Definitely.
But the problem is that I don't have any more attachments or feelings for V. Not now and probably not in the future. This is the third dream I've had that involved him in the picture. So it was a bit of an odd feeling for me when I woke up to find that I actually dreamt of him and that I really didn't feel that attraction even slightly. Not the least bit. In addition to that fact, I think he doesn't as well even though I felt like he did show some interest in the beginning but I think we've come to this unsaid but mutual understanding that we may not be right for each other even though I/he used to like him/me.
Do I feel sad? Not really. Do I wish that I actually still had those diminished feelings? Possibly.
This is probably due to the large fact that I think I actually retain those lost and found feelings I've felt for J since early this semester. Somehow talking to him yesterday managed to resurrect those burried and that I had thought was long gone feelings. Which I really do wish it remained tucked away somewhere in my mind.
But anyway, the conclusion is that I always dream about the oddest things and at the most awkward times and moments.
