Sunday, August 06, 2006

resurrected

I died. But I'm still here.

Had one of the scariest and most surreal dream the night before. I was apparently caught in a building complex place where the building was being attacked by terrorists or some assassinating group of people and I was stuck in it with this whole other bunch of people. Screams of terror echoed off the walls and gun shots pierced the hallowed hallways and corridors. I quickly escaped into a restroom where I then proceeded to hide myself in one of the stalls for whatever reason. I think there were a few other people in there as well already. Then a moment later, one of the terrorists invaders slash attackers came into the restroom and banged on the doors to check if anyone was in there. I heard him starting to shoot down the people inside the stalls one by one until I realised he was right outside my own stall. My mind raced insanely and rapidly about my life and all and how that I could and very possibly die right then and there. Then came the fatal shot that went through my abdomen and I immediately started to bleed out.

I heard him leave thereafter leaving us all to bleed to our deaths. I rememebered thinking that this was really how I was dying and that it was all going to end. It was a fairly quick and gnawingly slow effect that death had on me. I recalled being unable to move, then not being able to breathe properly and then finally my eyes closing sealing the living world away from me.

I awoke to my amazement that it was actually all a dream as it had felt so real and that I really thought that I had died. Maybe this is really the life after death. And that I actually had already died in a previous life which I unknowingly dreamt and all that I've been experiencing is really all a dream. That this all isn't real.

How does one ascertain the dream from the reality? I'm just too afraid as of now to determine that.