Friday, October 12, 2007

juxtapositions

It's been too long. Way too long. It's not that I don't dream anymore. I do but it just didn't seem interesting or forgettable to remember to blog about them.

But this one is different.

As usual, there'll be no names attached to the persons mentioned. Many things have last passed since the last dream recorded so I won't bother trying to keep anything up to speed.

So anyway, about a month and a half ago, I met some new friends, we started going out, bonding, that kind of stuff, and doing things together as a group, blah blah blah. Only thing is that there is this one person, BS, who I kinda have a crush thing for but there are some things that time cannot and ever will be able to smoothen out the creases, so that's no-man's land there in pursuing the person and all.

Which brings me back to the dream. It happened like this. The group of us were at a party or something where there were lots of other guests, plenty of food, good music, and formal looking people there as well. Nothing sleazy or dodgy, just a fun little event where everyone seemed nice and dressed pretty and handsomely, and made small talk with each other. We were mingling around, having fun, talking to people and then I finally got around to talking to him and we chatted and was friendly enough as usual. No suspicious activity to suggest anything more, yet.


When we were going up a small flight of stairs to get some food, he casually put his arm around my waist and gently directed me in the way of whatever we were ooh-ing and aah-ing then. So I responded innocently by placing my hand on one of his arms and suddenly we got a bit too touchy feely even for my taste and comfort zone since we were in a public place and we weren't even in a relationship lest I know him well enough yet. There wasn't anything to be censored going on but just that it felt like things were taking several leaps and bounds too fast.

I could feel eyes poking and pricking the back of my head already but we just somewhat continued as normal and suddenly he held my hand and led me somewhere else. Then, a couple of people approached us and we sort of parted for a while to join the others and continued our mingling.

It was just weird. He is cute, his charm oozes when he speaks, his eyes deep-set, and his smile practically screams a certain sparkle there, but like I said, time can't be the healer or cure of everything.

Perhaps prayer, a little bit of hope, and a whole lot of faith will bring me closer to the answer I'm searching for.

In the mean time, at least there's one guy whom I know I can always ogle at though my reach is light years away from him. Nonetheless, I am contented with that knowledge just as long as he continues to bring sexy back every now and then.

Milo "Droolness, Hotness, Nekkidness" Ventimiglia