twice the trouble

Lightning does strike the same place twice. At least for me it does.

I had another one of those dreams about a certain guy person whom I might or might not have a possible crush developing in its early stages.

Just to detract a bit, the colours in dreams apparently tell a lot about the overall mood, person, yourself and atmosphere of the dream. So I will attempt to describe this dream in some what that order.

The dream started off with the guy and I talking and getting a bit close to each other which if I recalled was a cold night hence the closeness. We were excited about attending a comedy act or show in this place 'Comedy House' or 'Comedy Club' where popular comedians come and do their act for a crowd of easy-going people. When we got there there was a long line of people waiting to get into the club. There were lots of bright and colourful lights everywhere we went.

I felt really contented and happy throughout the dream just being with him by my side. It was a normal date thing but not to the extent that we were in a relationship. I don't remember if we actually got into the club but it ended on a relatively happy note I would say. I remember waking up feeling more cheerful than usual despite it being so early in the morning.

The guy is someone whom I never thought I would actually sort of fall for or think of him in that context or way. Why him? Well it could be attributed to us just talking a bit more recently or maybe stemming from my own weird complexities regarding "taken" people. Me falling for "taken" people has already happened twice so far in this year alone. There really must be something wrong with me I think.

Anyway, with the dream locked away in the back of my little mind, I really shouldn't let it get to me and in the way of my every day life.
I mean like him not calling me last night even though he said he would doesn't mean anything. Does it?

orgas-m

Him. It was another dream about the guy again.

Except I can't seem to be able to regurgitate what happened in that dream here now. I just know that he was in it and that I was happy to see him that I didn't realise that I was actually dreaming till I was rudely awaken by the cheerless tone of my alarm.

I want to be with him.

And yet I don't because I know I can't.

resurrected

I died. But I'm still here.

Had one of the scariest and most surreal dream the night before. I was apparently caught in a building complex place where the building was being attacked by terrorists or some assassinating group of people and I was stuck in it with this whole other bunch of people. Screams of terror echoed off the walls and gun shots pierced the hallowed hallways and corridors. I quickly escaped into a restroom where I then proceeded to hide myself in one of the stalls for whatever reason. I think there were a few other people in there as well already. Then a moment later, one of the terrorists invaders slash attackers came into the restroom and banged on the doors to check if anyone was in there. I heard him starting to shoot down the people inside the stalls one by one until I realised he was right outside my own stall. My mind raced insanely and rapidly about my life and all and how that I could and very possibly die right then and there. Then came the fatal shot that went through my abdomen and I immediately started to bleed out.

I heard him leave thereafter leaving us all to bleed to our deaths. I rememebered thinking that this was really how I was dying and that it was all going to end. It was a fairly quick and gnawingly slow effect that death had on me. I recalled being unable to move, then not being able to breathe properly and then finally my eyes closing sealing the living world away from me.

I awoke to my amazement that it was actually all a dream as it had felt so real and that I really thought that I had died. Maybe this is really the life after death. And that I actually had already died in a previous life which I unknowingly dreamt and all that I've been experiencing is really all a dream. That this all isn't real.

How does one ascertain the dream from the reality? I'm just too afraid as of now to determine that.